inevitable.

i just can't get it off my mind. i know that hate is a strong word, but it's filled my thoughts and words for at least the last week. i wish i could just get it out and get finished with it, but i can't. it's too hard when everyone knows but you. it always creeps into my conversations uninvited and it won't ever go away. and yes, it's too soon for jokes, so stop. it's not funny. it won't ever be funny. it's like i always have so much to say, but when it comes right down to it, i can't get it out right and i just mess everything up all over again. i just can't seem to get it right. ever. is it just the dianna curse or something? i just don't get it. i wish i could just say i don't care anymore, but i'm such a bad liar.

this has been the worst week ever. really. i dont even have good dictionaries. they suck. it's less than a month for school to be out, and i swear i've never been so ready.

consequently: as a result, therefore; because of the reason given
inevitable: impossible to avoid or prevent

i really like the definition of inevitable.


i just wish i could say what i feel!!!