i always end up laughing at myself. i guess that's a good thing to do. sometimes its not funny but i laugh anyway. sometimes i laugh to cover up embarrassment. sometimes i laugh to hide that i don't get it. but i laugh.
i'm such a jealous person. when did i become so self-centered? why does it always have to go my way? why can't i just be happy when something works out for someone else for once even if it doesn't help me? this wasn't the way this was supposed to go.