i wanna go rock climbing again. to the cross. i need some of that again. yeahhh. i feel so close to God there. everything feels tangible. my thoughts, my feelings, my words on paper. everything seems deeper and more profound. i want it back. and i want it my way: no one there thats gonna talk, read over my shoulder, or act stupid. it should be a reflecting only kind of place.
and i'm dying to go back there.
i never ever have the words to say. i wish i could say what it is exactly that i feel to who i want to say it to, without feeling stupid or them thinking i'm too extreme, stupid, or in way way over my head.