dexter was at the bottom hard-minded. the attitude of the city on his own action was of no importance to him, not because he was going to leave the city, but because any outside attitude on the situation seemed superficial. he was completely indifferent to popular opinion. nor, when he had seen that it was no use, that he did not possess in himself the power to move fundamentally or to hold judy jones, did he bear any malice toward her. he loved her, and he would love her until the day he was too old for loving - but he could not have her. so he tasted the deep pain that is reserved only for the strong, just as he had tasted for a little while the deep happiness.
winter dreams - fitzgerald
so its kind of a bummer when all of your friends are out having fun (hanging out friends, continuing football activities, bonfires, parties, etc) and you are stuck working and killing your soul.