your cold shoulder is something my hot chocolate can't warm up.

you know you do this every time.

so angels and airwaves. weezer. relient k. all amazing. total miles traveled: over 1000. total hours traveled: around 20. memories? priceless.

breakdown.

we have reached the point of breakdown in the semester. half the people i know have already had one. the other half will, i just know it. mine is building. but i don't have time for that right now. really

you know what it's like to believe...

it makes me wanna scream.

so here's to living life vicariously through song lyrics. i identify way more closely than i care to. just ask me, i bet i can find a lyric to anything you ask me about myself. ha.

also, today i came to the conclusion that i am going to stop asking for advice because i hate it when people get upset if i don't take it. i don't want to hurt your feelings because i don't listen to you, i'm too stubborn. from now on, i will make my own decisions, however poor those decisions may be. and if i mess things up, it will be my own fault. if i get hurt, i'll deal with it. it will be my own drama. if i complain, just shut me up. it's the way i want it, exactly as it is, right this second. i appreciate the concern and love involved in advice and i appreciate that you are trying to save me from my own demise, but please...let me make my own mistakes. besides, i am only hurting myself.

knowledge.

things i learned today:
1. it is entirely possible to sleep when your roommate and her boyfriend are studying.
2. the delicate cycle on the washing machine actually works, and well.
3. the (low)(dhigh)-(high)(dlow) and square below rule.
4. i should not be allowed to dye hair.
5. that beach blonde hair dye will eat your skin away.
6. that pink hair dye will stain the sink.
7. but that bleach cleanser will get the pink out.
8. that free pizza always tastes better.
9. that paper towels don't remove nail polish well.
10. that if someone were to walk by my room right now with an open flame, i'm pretty sure it would explode.

overthinking.

i was thinking
over thinking
cause there's just too many scenarios
to analyze
look in my eyes
cause you're my dream please come true

they say worrying is like a rocking chair...

and it keeps you occupied but doesn't get you anywhere. and i'm inclined to disagree. i hate worrying but that's all i've been doing all day. but my worry made a decision for me and i feel loads better. we'll see where that decision takes us.

we'll see where this all takes us.

surely at least one time it will be different.

life.

oh, how good life can be :)

do you feel?

i think the rain is making me sad today.

alive.

the heart of a woman.

The heart of a woman goes forth with the dawn,
As a lone bird, soft winging, so restlessly on,
Afar o'er life's turrets and vales does it roam
In the wake of those echoes the heart calls home.

The heart of a woman falls back with the night,
And enters some alien cage in its plight,
And tries to forget it has dreamed of the stars
While it breaks, breaks, breaks on the sheltering bars.





georgia douglas johnson
brilliant.t