so im doing it again. the exact thing i did the last time and it completely backfired and turned out horribly wrong. so you think i learned my lesson? no. im asking the same questions again and again and i cant stop until i find out the answer. its what ruins everything, because i cant let anything be. we shall see how it goes down tomorrow when i see him.
this is all completely what i want and completely what i dont want and completely right and completely wrong.
im blowing all this up so that it sounds like a big deal. it's really not. :]
i just like being vague. and seeing what happens. more later.