i wanted, so i did.

and it was amazing.
i wish every day could be like that.

the stories make me smile.
the quirks make me laugh.
i want to share it all.
everything.


"your name is pounding through my veins
can't you hear how it is sung?"


you really didn't have a choice.
i know you felt it.

i want to wake up where you are.

the secret's in the telling.

our act of defiance
we keep this secret in our blood
no paper or letters
we pass just close enough to touch
we love in secret names
we hide within our veins
the things that keep us bound to one another

there is a secret that we keep
i won't sleep if you won't sleep
because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
we are compelled to do what we must do
we are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

until the last resilient hope
is frozen deep inside my bones
and this broken fate has claimed me
and my memories for its own
your name is pounding through my veins
can't you hear how it is sung?
and i can taste you in my mouth
before the words escape my lungs
and i'll whisper only once...

there is a secret that we keep
i won't sleep if you won't sleep
because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
we are compelled to do what we have to
we are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

my heart is heavy.

in ways i cannot begin to explain.

i am full of praise,
i am full of question.




i miss you in ways you cannot imagine.

you can make or break me in a second.

or a second thought.


it doesn't take much to just realize things you really should have known a long time ago.
or to realize the significance of things you've forgotten the importance of.
or to get too confident about things you are sure of.

face it, it's always better when we're together.

a three dollar bag of chocolate eaten by yourself is a three dollar bag of chocolate.
a three dollar bag of chocolate shared with friends in the hallway discussing the most random assortment of topics is priceless.




i'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together.




i dislike my job.

i need you more than you need me.

i'm a little confused by the reunion of blink-182.
not that a blink reunion is a bad thing.
but i liked AVA better.


i'm a bit nostalgic.
i miss you a lot today.

***

make sure you're holding on,
cause it could be the one,
the one you're waiting on.

you always find a way to change my mind.

even when i don't want to.


i'm doing exactly what i resolved not to do anymore.
but my greatest instinct is to respond to it naturally.





in other news, i'm definitely going to see ben folds in hotlanta february 27. be jealous.




happy national weatherpersons day,
february 5.

blue.

so...ben folds tickets are only $33 instead of $90.


that changes things drastically.





also, i finally finished reading blue like jazz