christmas.

merry christmas...


i made it through the year
and i did not even collapse
gotta say thank God for that
i'm torn between what keeps me whole
and what tears me in half
i'll fall apart, or stay intact

with tired eyes i stumble back to bed
i need to realize my sorry life's not hanging by a thread
at least not yet

so look at me now
it's finally christmas and i'm home
head indoors
to get out of this weather
and i don't know how
but the closest friends i've ever known
are all inside
singing together
singing merry christmas, here's to many more

it always hurt to be all by myself this time of year
a cold and lonely christmas eve
and living out my days alone
well that had been my deepest fear
but you promised you won't leave

i look towards the east and see a star
Jesus Christ it's blessed my life
to know just who you are
you are my hope

so look at me now
it's finally christmas and i'm home
head indoors
to get out of this weather
and i don't know how
but the closest friends i've ever known
are all inside
singing together
singing merry christmas, here's to many more

deck the halls with mistletoe
may all your heavy burdens go
up the chimney in a cloud of smoke
the fire's burning bright
strike up the band and play the tune
cause christmas will be here and soon
you'll hear our song in every room
this merry christmas night

singing merry christmas
here's to many more

i celebrate the day.

tonight in the youth bible study, the topic was christmas. what does christmas mean to you? and i didn't share my answer (it favors of bitterness, im not in the best of spirits today) but it isn't meant to be bitter.

coming from experiences of years where i adored christmas and hated christmas, both for the wrong reasons, this is what i have come to believe:

christmas is a commercialized holiday that provides an excuse for people to indulge in shopping, spend way too much money, and stress out over the little things that shouldn't matter.

we don't show the meaning of christmas anymore.

i understand that christmas is a celebration, and i do participate in the aforementioned activities and many, many more.

but i also believe that the real meaning behind the season of celebration (that now starts way before halloween) has been forgotten.

instead of taking the time to spread the love of Christ, we are fighting with each other over the last copy of guitar hero 3. instead of sharing the joy that this baby that was born came specifically to die for the sins we hadn't even committed yet, because he loves us that much, we are turning into a greedy, materialistic society. and it affects all of us.

so, here's to the real meaning of christmas.

christmas.
christ. mas.
more christ.


this song sums it up well:

i celebrate the day
and with this christmas wish is missed
the point i could convey
if only i could find the words to say to let You know
how much You've touched my life because

here is where You're finding me
in the exact same place as new year's eve
and from a lack of my persistency
we're less than half as close as i want to be

and the first time
that You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
and the first breath that left Your lips
did You know that it would change this world forever

and the first time
that You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
and the first breath that left Your lips
did You know that it would change this world forever

and so this Christmas i'll compare
the things i felt in prior years
to what this midnight made so clear
that You have come to meet me here

to look back and think that
this baby would one day save me
in the hope that what You did
that You were born so i might really live
to look back and think that
this baby would one day save me

and the first time
that You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
and the first breath that left Your lips
did You know that it would change this world forever

and the first time
that You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
and the first breath that left Your lips
did You know that it would change this world forever

and i
i celebrate the day
that You were born to die
so i could one day pray for You to save my life
pray for you to save my life
pray for you to save my life
-rk

read them.

the words i type
are the words i could never say.
but know that i mean every word.

concert.

i neeeeeed a concert. now.
anyone up for a road trip?
it will be the perfect end to finals week.
(which, btw, finals...ugh).
i am so sick of studying.
i want to go have fun.
at a concert.
i need either one of my top two bands,
or a december enfuego.
new years eve is too far away for the next one :(